I have not been a very good blogger on this one, and I am sorry. I have mainly been focused on my blog about my journey to a baby. If you want to read and follow, you should do it!
About a year ago, my dear husband and I decided to really start ":trying" for a baby. I expected like most women my age do, that we would try and a few months to a year later become pregnant and a new baby would be bouncing in my lap 9 months later. Our hopes and expectations were brought to an abrupt hault when I got pregnant in September of 2013. We were just beyond excited that after officially tracking days and truly trying it did not take us that long. We sadly lost that pregnancy 7 weeks later on a cold October morning.
Long story shortened is, I have something called septate uterus. I am not afraid to share this with the world, because it was new to me, and maybe there is someone out there who can learn and appreciate my story. Maybe there is someone out there like me, who feels alone and just wants so badly to know there are others going through the same. A septate uterus means I have a normal sized uterus that looks good from the outside. On the inside, it is separated into two cavities by a wall of tissue called a septum. I also have two cervixes and a vaginal septum (my vagina was separated into two parts too, and it took up almost 3/4 of the whole interior. Crazy!) I had surgery on 2/26/14 to have the uterine septum taken out, as well as the vaginal septum. I still have two cervixes, but that is okay! My Doctor said when I do have a baby, the baby will most likely just choose a path to take and the other one will just move out of the way.
I go in for another sonogram today to see if there is still residual septum in my uterus. If there is, there is a chance I may need to go through the surgery again. If the septum is small enough, giving a future baby plenty of room, she says she may just leave it.
It's been hard. My husband and I are doing so much better. We've definitely had some rough spots the past year or so. God has really taken this storm and turned it into a beautiful opportunity for our marriage. Through my relationship strengthening with my Heavenly Father, I have grown to love and appreciate my husband even more through all of this. That is a blessing. Not a curse.
One day, the storm clouds will roll away and through a sunny clearing, I will see a bright rainbow. Just for me. I just know it!
Kristen
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